गंधर्वयुग

काल बऱ्याच दिवसांनंतर चित्रपटगृहात जाऊन चित्रपट पाहण्याचा योग आला. अर्थातच it was worth it…. आमच्या पिढीला गन्धर्वयुगाच्या सुवर्णकाळाची सफर घडवून आणण्याचा हा प्रयत्न निश्चितच स्तुत्य आहे ….

सकाळ मधल्या सुबोध भावेंच्या लेखनातून चित्रपट बघायची उत्सुकता निर्माण झाली होतीच; पण ती उत्सुकता शमवतानाच बालगन्धर्वांविषयी अधिक माहिती घ्यायलाही उद्युक्त करण्याचं काम या चित्रपटानं केलंय . एखाद्या विषयाचा ध्यास घेऊन त्याच्या पूर्ततेसाठी झटलं की कसा उत्तम कलाविष्कार साकार होतो , याचं उदाहरण म्हणून या कलाकृतीकडं पाहता येईल …

सुबोध भावेंचा राजस बालगंधर्व मनात घर करतोच , पण त्याचबरोबर “मामा , गंधर्व म्हणजे काय रे ?”, असं निरागसपणे विचारणारा अथर्व कर्वेही आपल्या छोट्याश्या भूमिकेत ठसा उमटवून जातो . बालगंधर्वांची रसिकता, विनम्रता , कर्तव्यनिष्ठा, देशभक्ती , उत्कृष्टतेचा ध्यास , अनेकानेक आघात पचवण्याचं धैर्य , रसिकांवरची श्रद्धा , तत्त्वनिष्ठा आणि “इदं न मम ” अशी निरासक्त वृत्ती , अशा बहुविध पैलूंचं इतक्या अल्प कालावधीत प्रत्ययकारी दर्शन घडवण्याचं शिवधनुष्य नितीन देसाईंच्या नेतृत्त्वाखाली या साऱ्या मंडळींनी अतिशय उत्तमरीत्या पेललंय . पण त्याचबरोबर त्यांच्या अव्यवहारीपणा सारख्या काही उण्या बाजूही अगदी सहजगत्या समोर आणल्यायेत . आणि हे सगळं केलंय ते कुठंही “judgmental ” न होता … कारण , चित्रपटात म्हटल्याप्रमाणं गंधर्वांच्या आयुष्याला लौकिक बंधनांमध्ये अडकवण्याचा प्रयत्न करणंही निष्फळ आहे …. . शिवाय , सहकाऱ्यांचं प्रेम आणि कळकळ, रसिकांचं प्रेम आणि त्यातूनच उमटणारी दानशूरता , सहचारिणीची सोशिकता या गोष्टी झाकोळल्या जाणार नाहीत याचीही पुरेपूर दक्षता दिग्दर्शकानं घेतलीये . 

मुलीच्या मृत्यूनंतर डोळ्यात आलेलं पाणी क्षणार्धात टिपून भूमिका रंगवणारे बालगंधर्व आपल्या डोळ्यात अश्रू उभे करतात , तर बोलपटाच्या चित्रीकरणाच्या वेळी होणारी एका सच्च्या रंगकर्मीची घुसमट आपल्यालाही अस्वस्थ करून सोडते . आणि हे सगळं पाहिलं की पटतं – “खरंच, आयुष्य हे तर एक नाटकच. त्याचे प्रवेश “त्यानं” आधीच लिहून ठेवलेत . फक्त आपल्या वाटेला आलेली भूमिका उत्तमरीत्या पार पाडणं हेच आपलं कर्तव्य”.

PS: १. आनंद भाटेंचा देखील विशेषत्त्वाने उल्लेख करायला हवा.
      २. आता कुठूनतरी “धर्मात्मा” मिळवायला हवा ….

Advaita: in my Ph.D. Problems

It has been a month since I wrote… Firstly, it was the effort to catch up with the running time, which had left me back (or may be I had let it run, as I was too inertiatic to catch up) and then, for a short while, blogger fuelled the lack of posts … I had a good excuse for not writing anything…

But now, some deep spiritual realization, urged me to write this…  Adi Shankaracharya proposed “Advaitawad” (nonduality) in his quest for understanding the Brahman. "Advaita" refers to the identity of the Self (Atman) and the Whole (Brahman). Seems pretty difficult to digest, isn’t it? But I hadn’t thought even in my dreams that my petty Ph.D. work  (It’s really petty compared to the problems he was thinking about, though for me it’s certainly worth more than that ) may make me a staunch follower of Advaitawad.  I was struggling for a while for getting uniform integrability of some particular class of functions. That seemed to be the biggest hurdle, which showed no signs of moving… We tried to bypass it in many ways, either trying to choose some completely different, well-trodden (and hence easier) path or even by devising escape routes… But,…. there was no way we could avoid it…Whatever may be the road, we were bound to stumble upon it sooner or later….

And now, finally, that is solved……I was very much relieved to see the solution. But my joy was short lived…As soon as I thought that I have crossed the so called biggest hurdle, another one was there to welcome me… Now, it is the situation where I am in search of something which Ramanujan had encountered when he was in school. I have to work out the limit of the type 0/0. Now, again the fruitless efforts of filling up the notebook pages for rearranging the things in a frail hope of landing on something  finite have started. But, whatever may be the shuffling, the terms tend to remain loyal to their original form…In fact once I came up with a limit, which involved some intricate mathematical expression with three different constants, and kept on simplifying it for about 10 minutes, only to discover that the most simplified version was 0.

In essence, even these problems deny dualism. All these problems have a single soul, though they may be having different external forms. And one more thing, avoiding a problem, is like simply avoiding an unwanted relative (some nosy aunty or meddlesome uncle, which all of us come across pretty often), who is sure to bump into us at the next crossing.